Just so lonely

There are times where some people feel lonely where they miss some one. Me I feel that I am a lonely person no one to turn to, no one to speak to, no one to sleep and wake up next to, see there loving smile which says I here if you need anything, yes I am
insecure but everyone needs to know that they are loved for and cared an have that all important hug from them

Wizzing

time 2324 date 08052012


I have things wizzing around in my head, all sorts of stuff, so much that i cant sleep.

I am sitting here watching all my pre recorded programmes that i have on the sky box it feels good but does not at the same time..

I look around and i think what i have done with my life, where have i been, the answer is simple nothing, nothing much at all, to be honest i think i have been a pain to family for a very long time even though i try not to be i am, even a disappoint not finishing uni even though i tried my best i was no good at studying and i let a lot of people down including my self.

The best thing right now is as i am writing this its raining, and the sound of the rain is so soothing. With the window open you can hearevery drop of the rain and feel the cold breeze come into the bedroom ...

I think i will sign off now...

speaking the truth

Hi there

time is 00:58 sat 5 may 2012

i have just been speaking to someone i cant mention names but i asked about her status being worried and all that to see if she was ok, this person knows how i feel about her but she has informed me that being friends is best which i dont mind to be honest it could ave been a lot worse and she not talk to me lol...

But she asked if i think she is crazy b and i informed her that she will be asking the wrong person  all she wanted was a honest ans, my ans was no i dont think u r crazy but u did take my breath and my heart away so i aint sure :):D., the convo went on for a while asking why and how sometimes you can say why or how but not all the time.

While writing this we are talking and multi tasking at this time of night aint easy when you have work in the morning but at times its good to talk to people that make you smile for what ever reason it may be i just wish i could make her smile at times like tonight...


im sorry

Lonely feeling

There days where I wake up, and I think what have I done in my life to be proud of and the and is nothing any thing I have tried has turned to sand and been swept away.

I then think what about falling in love, wishful thinking I think on that one if I see some one I like I have a hard time to tell them how I feel and it comes out wrong in what i want to say to them.

When I do say something it is wrong and I end pushing them away or getting them to dislike me.

Sometimes it is the best thing when you get them to dislike you as there is less chance you will get hurt but then, it still means you will be still lonely one big circle in a way I guess if logic is correct.

What a lonely world it is for ever more

Place Of Total Peace

People say you can find peace any where 6 foot under, a lonely beach, out in a different country where no one knows , sitting in the dark, sitting in ur room, on plane boat car or even cyclin the list is endless.

Today i found my place of peace ...and it felt awesome the time was there i had no care in the world, no stress, no worries, just me, the air, listening to the river follow and natures creatures... awesome...

This is My Choice

The Closest Thing To Crazy :(,

Think Twice,

Just Walk Away,

Refuse To Dance,

This I Love,

Not Enough Love,

If Want It,

I'll Be Waiting,

A Long And Sad Goodbye,

This Moment Is All There Is,

Queen Of My Heart,

You Do Something To Me,

No Leaf Cover,

Standy By Me,

Lily Was Here,

Lady In Red....

Evergreen

That Old Black Magic

Bluemoon



My choices to choose a right or wrong path has been placed where it goes only time will tell

Times 1

There are times when you just want to be left alone no one around you in a world of your own, then there is a time you just wonna be around with family and loved ones.

Then there is the person you wonna give your whole heart, soul and feelings to on those special days.

Everyday is a new day , fresh day and at times ground hog day

There are times

There are times when you sit there and wonder the following:



REGERTS

do you have any an funny thing is when i was at uni none at all, but left uni yes i do more then anything things i should o said to some or not said, should i have done this or done that, what ifs and what haves,, but as far as i can see most desicions i tend to make go wrong so i have decided to finally let faith guide me and lets start a new journey and see where its goes..



LOVES

yes but to frightened to say it incase i get hurt and have space left in my heart which has been torn out this is the one and only risk i dont wonna take :( unless its worth the fight .



MONEY

just give the lottery numbers the winnings and we will end the subject on the matter..



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