Just so lonely

There are times where some people feel lonely where they miss some one. Me I feel that I am a lonely person no one to turn to, no one to speak to, no one to sleep and wake up next to, see there loving smile which says I here if you need anything, yes I am
insecure but everyone needs to know that they are loved for and cared an have that all important hug from them

Wizzing

time 2324 date 08052012


I have things wizzing around in my head, all sorts of stuff, so much that i cant sleep.

I am sitting here watching all my pre recorded programmes that i have on the sky box it feels good but does not at the same time..

I look around and i think what i have done with my life, where have i been, the answer is simple nothing, nothing much at all, to be honest i think i have been a pain to family for a very long time even though i try not to be i am, even a disappoint not finishing uni even though i tried my best i was no good at studying and i let a lot of people down including my self.

The best thing right now is as i am writing this its raining, and the sound of the rain is so soothing. With the window open you can hearevery drop of the rain and feel the cold breeze come into the bedroom ...

I think i will sign off now...

speaking the truth

Hi there

time is 00:58 sat 5 may 2012

i have just been speaking to someone i cant mention names but i asked about her status being worried and all that to see if she was ok, this person knows how i feel about her but she has informed me that being friends is best which i dont mind to be honest it could ave been a lot worse and she not talk to me lol...

But she asked if i think she is crazy b and i informed her that she will be asking the wrong person  all she wanted was a honest ans, my ans was no i dont think u r crazy but u did take my breath and my heart away so i aint sure :):D., the convo went on for a while asking why and how sometimes you can say why or how but not all the time.

While writing this we are talking and multi tasking at this time of night aint easy when you have work in the morning but at times its good to talk to people that make you smile for what ever reason it may be i just wish i could make her smile at times like tonight...


im sorry